DON'T GIVE UP ON DEEPER LIFE SEMINARS

Hi SIS,

Thanks for sharing.

As Bro K & others shared on sat prior to the rally, signing up for DLS seems to attract a lot of attacks from satan. But pls take heart. The truth is, you should be happy and rejoice if you find yourself in trials & tribulations when you go for DLS discipleship. It means you are an anointed one, the chosen one, the one God wants to use as an Apostle, Prophet, Evangelist, Teacher or Pastor. It means you have a great big blessing waiting for you at the end of the tunnel / at the top of the mountain once Jesus leads u out of climbing thru the valley of the shadow of death! satan is also vy smart, he wont bother to waste his time on sumone who do not hv any potential to do harm to his evil kingdom. so, be happy and proud tat God has chosen you to be His flag bearers!

Let me share a fraction of what i shared wt Bro D and Sis B over Hokkien mee last nite.

Within the first 6 months when i first got saved on 01 April 1999, HS lead me to RLC for a special meeting and asked me to join the DLS pgrm. I went for a few services and had a look at the class. As i was still a baby Christian and didnt know how to differentiate betw the voice of HS and the voice of the devil, i heard a lot of voices whispering in my ears tat i m too young a Christian to join DLS, tat i should hop around a few more churches, tat i shud start by goin to those Bible studies in the church or go to BCM to do Bible studies, join cell groups, join mission trips etc etc etc....only after i hv all those experiences only shud i do DLS! what a lie! I ended up doin a Bible course at Theological Centre of Asia but dropped out after the 1st year coz it was so dry! HS was totally absent fr there! After tat i hopped to many different churches, cells and mission grps and being exposed to a lot of "Church/Christian politics", i was shocked, discouraged, bewildered and eventually i backslided. I went thru really terrible times over the last 9 yrs of wandering in the desert, at times I contemplated and attempted suicide, at times got involved with some Indochina mafia and almost lost my life, I almost became a bankrupt etc etc etc....until Feb this year when i finally said enuf is enuf and i asked God to lead me to a new church whr i can be fed and to grow as the church i wz attending for the last 9 yrs wz all dried up. I held up 5 churches in PJ and prayed tat the Lord will confirm the one tat i wz to go to. I wz supposed to start wt FGA in okr but tat sun morning, my kids and i woke up late and we missed their service. So i checked on all the other 4 churches' websites and found out tat v missed all that mornin's services except RLC whc has a service at 1115hr.

So we went and as we entered the sanctuary, the usherer gave me the usual stack of papers and guess what?! The 1st brochure at the top of the stack wz.......u guessed it! DLS Intake Registration! Immediately the HS reminded me tat i wz supposed to do this programme 9 long years ago! At that point of time, i knew wat i had to do, i immediately filled up the form and handed in the registration.

Trust me, it wasnt smooth sailing after tat. There were many occasions where the devil brought situations to discourage me from goin for the class. The devil even deceived me to think tat my application was rejected coz i didnt hear anything from DLS admin for many wks until the 2nd day of class in the new semester! Apparently, they kept calling and cudnt get thru to my mobile phone! Tats y i missed the 1st day of DLS1. I wz dejected, i tot i wz not qualified enuf to be enrolled in DLS! But once i started, nothing can stop me now! I have gone thru severe trials over the last 2 semesters and have resolved to persevere come "hell or high waters"! I jz know at the back of my heart and mind tat if God has chosen me to be His disciple, to be His good and faithful servant, to be His flag bearer and to be His salt and light, then i jz go forward in faith tat God will protect and take k of me & my 3 kids while i obediently learn more about Him and His purpose for my life thru the lessons in DLS. Many times the attacks of the devil have caused me to be late for classes but nvm, better late than never rite?!

So bros and sis, be of good cheer. Rejoice! Read and meditate on the book of James to encourage urselves. Pls dont hesitate to post in this group to share your trials wit all of us and request for prayers.

God bless us all!

UNFORGIVENESS, A HINDRANCE TO GOD'S BLESSINGS TO YOU

TESTIMONY OF THE GOODNESS OF OUR LORD JESUS

UNFORGIVENESS – A HINDRANCE TO GOD’s ABUNDANT BLESSINGS

Shalom!

Fellow disciples of the House of Joy!

Thank GOD for the wonderful breakthroughs in my life I had over the last 2 weeks. I just can’t comprehend…..years of bottled up anger, unforgiveness, hatred, disappointment, fear, insecurity etc all quickly dealt with after spending those 5 days up in the mountains in Guilin China over CNY. In those very very quiet times with GOD up in the mountain, I could hear so very clearly the HOLY SPIRIT speak and minister to my heart, revealing the condition of my heart, revealing all my faults and shortcomings, sins, strongholds and bondages which I had conveniently blamed on other people all my life when I chose to live in denial, blaming everyone else on earth except myself for whatever problems, wrongs and unhappiness I went through, choosing to live in self-pity and always seeking sympathy from others (especially using it to “cheat” women). Wow! What a big slap in my own face when I looked back at how pathetic a life I used to live.

There are just too many revelations from the LORD so I’ll just share one at a time. This first one is particularly significant and I know it’ll touch the hearts of many of you so I’ll share this first. This testimony goes like this….

In 2006, I gave a money back guarantee to my regular client, Petronas, to engage a singer by the name of Leonard (who is one of my longest and best buddy in the entertainment biz) for their annual Oilmen’s Gala Dinner where the main artiste is a famous party band from Hollywood called “Splash”. So the day of the event came and Leonard’s crew was supposed to set up and rehearse at 4pm sharp. I called to remind Leonard’s wife at 10am that morning that there was a heavy jam in KL city as roads around Dataran Merdeka was closed for a major concert, that they should leave USJ early and not get stuck in traffic jams. Their sound crew only arrived at 4.45pm and without even apologizing, they started accusing my technical people of not preparing the cables etc that they wanted. So I called Leonard’s wife and confronted her expecting a nice apology and then get on with the show. Instead, I don’t know what challenges she was going through that day, she snapped back at me and we ended up arguing for almost an hour on our cell phones over who’s right and who’s wrong…I was under a lot of pressure as it was a big international concert and I was on the verge of making a decision whether to break up with my then gf of 2yrs who keep refusing to marry me. After all that was said and done, when I got home after successfully completing the event, I immediately went online and stopped payment on the cheque I gave to Leonard for his performance. Then I sent his wife an email demanding for a letter of apology before I release the full payment to her…..

However, instead of a simple apology, she sent me a long 3 page letter “screaming” back at me why they had the right to come late etc. I still refused to pay them (even though I received full payment from the client), and 2 months later I received a lawyer’s letter from Leonard. That effectively soured our good and long brotherly friendship. In retaliation, I called my lawyer who was a Christian brother from the church where I used to worship and explained the situation to him. He told me my choices and I choosed to counter sue Leonard for 10 times of what I was supposed to pay him, I even offered my lawyer 50% share if he won the case. I left the matter at the hands of my lawyer and forgot about the whole matter…..until that day up on the mountain in Guilin…

As I was doing my daily morning devotion, praying in tongues, suddenly I was interrupted by a phone call. Usually, I would ignore when I am praying or worshipping GOD but somehow, my spirit told me that this is a call I had to answer. So I answered and my father was on the line telling me that a lawyer with some court officials were at his house to confiscate and auction his TV, Fridge, Washing Machine, Microwave oven etc because it turned out that I lost the case against Leonard! I asked him to tell the lawyer that I am in China and will come back to settle the case after 14 Feb and they agreed to postpone the auction to 18Feb. My heart and mind was greatly disturbed after the phone call. I can literally feel the anger and unforgiveness creeping back into my heart over all that has happened. But GOD is good, the HOLY SPIRIT quickly told me that it is GOD’s will that I lost the case and this incident is to remind me of the issue of unforgiveness that has sunk deep into the very bottom of my heart. GOD then led me to thank HIM for Leonard & his wife and to pray in tongues for them! Being obedient, I did just that and felt a sense of relief and a heavy burden leaving my heart. HOLY SPIRIT then ministered to me that no matter who is right or wrong, as the children of GOD, we are to forgive and to love. JESUS reminded me of HIS parables of turning the other cheek, the parable of giving your coat if someone demand for your cloak, the parable of forgiving 7 x 77 times in the same day that person who offends you and to settle with the one who is on the way to the court to sue you. What a morning of revelation and release for me. Since that day till the day I settled the lawsuit, GOD led me thank HIM and pray for Leonard daily! At the same time, I could hear satan’s voice screaming into my ears that I would be a fool to settle, that I should appeal the case to a higher court, that I would lose face by settling, that my image and reputation would be ruined etc. Wow, I really had to bind and break that evil spirit of unforgiveness almost every second when I was praying over this matter. In fact, my own carnal voice was also arguing with GOD. I said it’s not fair that I did not get my apology. It was clearly Leonard who wronged me. I should get some kind of compensation etc. Sigh! How our carnality tries to come in the way of GOD’s great plans for our lives…. I was even more horrified when GOD told me to buy a Bible as a gift for Leonard on top of having to pay him with interest, court cost etc. And, HE told me to include a card and sign it with apologies. What?! I was wronged and I had to apologise?! Not fair! I said, why GOD? Why are you doing this to me?

Then GOD gently told me that this issue of unforgiveness is like a big boulder acting like a dam blocking the flow of blessings in GOD’s appointed river that flows to me. GOD showed me a vision of the river in a huge valley like the one I saw when traveling to Shangri-La in China where a huge rock stopped the flow of water and only trickles of water was seeping through. WOW! Even the trickles of blessings already made me quite well-to-do so GOD said; imagine if the boulder is removed! The blessings will come through like a flood! So again, I humbled myself and promised GOD that I will do as HE tells me to.

On the morning of 17Feb, I went to the bank and withdrew the money. That morning, even as I woke up, the devil started screaming in my ears not to settle. I can feel how desperate it was to stop me from getting my breakthrough. All the way to the bank, all the way from the bank to the Bible book shop, all the way from the shop to the lawyer’s office and even while the lawyer was counting the cash that I gave her to settle the case, the evil one was screaming into my ears and I had to sing and hum “Jesus, Beautiful Saviour” over and over and over again all that time to labour and fight on to achieve the breakthrough GOD has prepared for me. The lawyer looked at me while she was counting the thousands of Ringgit like I had lost my mind! Ha ha ha! I think for her, I was the first person who was happy to lose a case and can even sing and rejoice while having to pay the penalty and compensation….and when she was done counting, I took out the gift wrapped Bible with a “Thank You” card attached on top of it and asked her to pass it to Leonard when he comes to collect his money. She stared at me for a few seconds and gave me that unbelieving look. I can almost hear her mind scream “this guy has gone nuts!” ha ha ha….but I was still singing and praising GOD!

I could not describe how relieved and light I felt as I left the lawyer’s office that day. I could feel JESUS’ hand patting me on my head and said “my son, finally, you obeyed me and came back to my path that leads up to the mountain of faith and blessings. See, I greater blessings stored up and waiting for you”. While I drive away, I sent an sms to my lawyer to inform him that I had settled the case and that he should withdraw whatever counter suit or appeals. Moments later, this is the reply I received from him:

“Your actions took a lot of forgiveness. God has moved you to a higher level.”

Tears of joy and relief immediately welled up and I cried like a baby and thanked GOD for HIS confirmation while I was driving home.

When I came about, I then sent another sms to Leonard and told him that I have settled his long overdue payment and asked him to accept the gift I included with the payment as a token of my sincere apologies and thanks for the ordeal he had to go through because of my unforgiving actions and I blessed him in JESUS’ name and told him GOD loves him. He replied after about 6 hours later:

“TQ bro Kiat Ken, am appreciative of your sincere thoughts, love and God bless always. I am continuously involved in helping the needy, you’ve probably read about it in the papers too, join me in this journey whenever permissible k…”

Thank GOD the barrier and ice was broken! Then I sms him that I am also involved in Christian ministry to the poor, homeless, widows and orphans and will soon be starting such a ministry in Kunming China in June 2009 and I invited him to join me for a holiday there and take a look at our work. I blessed him, his wife and his children again in JESUS’ name. He replied:

“I am truly elated to hear of your sacrifices, the world’s need for such gestures r actually endless, …. I’d love to be your guest in China soon….btw, the money received has already been allocated to a worthy cause. Love and God bless from all of us….”

Later that night, and the following day I received these sms’es from Leonard:

“My wife says we bring you for some newly discovered thai food one of these days ya J”

And:

“Hi bro KK, I’ll be tied up these 3 weeks. Pls do keep in touch ya.”

WOW! Can you see what the LOVE OF GOD can do? All hostility, anger and bitterness just melted away by FORGIVING!

Later that night, I went to my Deeper Life Seminar class as usual and a German Pastor, Ps Kitty, was teaching and at the end of the class she prayed and prophesied over all the students. I was the 2^nd last to be prayed for and having told her about the plans to start the children’s mission in China the previous night, I thought she was going to pray a blessing for my soon to be full time ministry there but when she started praying for me, before she can utter the first word, she paused and said GOD is telling her something…..then she continued and said:

“GOD says HE is going to make you a very rich man. And because your heart is focused on GOD and you put GOD first in your life, even though you have been unfaithful in the past but you have been faithfully giving lately. GOD will give me the spirit of Isaac, that during times of famine, I will still faithfully and obediently sow and reap many folds just like in the book of Genesis and GOD will make me very wealthy in the land that HE wants me to be in. And I will be the steward of HIS resources with the gift of making money, and GOD will use me to teach other brothers and sisters in Christ on how to make money!”

As Ps Kitty prophesied that over me, I was already sobbing, tears of joy and relief and thankfulness just flowed out of my eyes as I thanked GOD for all that I’ve been through over the 9 years since I accepted JESUS and the 5 years when I went around my “desert” experience. Hallelujah!

Bros and sisters in Christ, I don’t know what “desert” you are going through right now. I don’t know what and how GOD is dealing with you where you are presently. I don’t know the condition of your heart but what I do know, that if there is unforgiveness, anger, hatred, pain, suffering, doubts, fears, bitterness etc in your heart, please do yourself a big favour. Come to the cross of JESUS CHRIST, soak yourself in HIS blood, lay all these burdens at the foot of the CROSS and repent of all these sins. Be honest with GOD and OBEY HIM. Open your heart to HIM and let HIM do what no man or woman can do. Let HIM cleanse, release and lift those burdens away from you. Then wait upon HIM to bring that much awaited victory into your life with OPEN HEAVENS!

GOD bless us all! Amen!

Your servant,

THE STORY OF MY SALVATION IN HAMASHIACH

Sis,

Dun wori. Evythg v share and pray here is fully P&C, we'll only share with outsiders if the person who posted requests for it. Bros & sisters in this group, kindly observe this strictly ok? If you really hv the burden to pray for a particular member of this group in your other prayer grps or cells, by all means, go ahead but jz lift up this person and pray the HS' perfect prayer i believe will be sufficient, no need to tell the whole story, v respect each other’s privacy agreed?

What you & ur husband are going through now as you shared, i went through in the 1997 economic meltdown when i was an unbeliever. I urge u, from my experience, pls stand by your husband no matter what, even if he was the one at fault who created this mess. This is the crucial time where he needs your full support, undstdg and tender loving care and concern. Dont quarrel and dont jump ship, even tho at times it seems like the ship is sinking. This may be the greatest test of your faith in your entire life before God brings the biggest breakthrough for your life and pours down so much blessings that your barns overfloweth. Bro, if you are reading this too, pls share with your wife and ask her for her full and undivided support. No matter who made the mistake tat brought u & ur fmly into this situation, this is not the time to point fingers and play the blame game like Adam & Eve. Pls dont make the same mistake i made. I was too proud to ask for love and help and my ex-wife was too insecure and paranoid so in the end we had one fight too many and she left. Those were real dark days of depression in my life's history. But i thank God that He only allowed me to go thru it for ard 2 yrs from July 1997 till 01April 1999. I thank God that He didnt allow me to go nuts or lose my life in revenge and bitterness. This is the story of God's grace and mercy for my life when He decided that i have had enuf of being kicked around by satan and it was time to reel me in like a poor little fish with a hook in my mouth and save me from the depths of hell. This is the story of my salvation. Lord Jesus, i pray that what i went thru during those dark years, God can use to touch Sisters and Brothers everywhere, whomever who takes the trouble to read this, in their current situations. Amen!

From childhood, i always wanted to be better than my father. I wanted to be more successful and richer. I was vy ambitious. I always dreamt of becoming a millionaire before i turn 30yo. Because of this burning desire, i quit halfway thru my ACCA course to pursue a full time career in Showbiz, i was already quite successful as a Disc Jockey and MC in discos, pubs and private events around M'sia so i quit my job and started my own entertainment agency cum sound & lighting rental company in 1990. Many clients migrated from my ex-boss and i had an immediate large pool of customers, at the chagrin of my ex-boss. My biz grew vy quickly from 1990 to 1994. 1st i had RM10k. Then i worked hard to achieve RM100k. Growth was phenomenon in the early and mid 1990s...the economy was really good then, esp when i had so many "cables" in both goverment and private corporations. Within months i hv achieved my target so from 100k my new objective became 1mil. U see the evil spirit of greed in action in me then?

This was a very big jump, so to achieve it, i had to work 10 times harder, entertain 10x more and bribe 1000x more! My greed and love of worldly riches drove me to get a XXmil loan to expand my biz. I was already very comfortable and living quite a luxurious life but i choosed to gamble evythg. i became the franchisor of the world's no.1 sound system for south east asia and quickly established branches in bkk and jakarta doing all kinds of international concerts and conventions. i was working more than 18hrs a day and when mega projects came, i wud spend 2-3days without sleep! My home became like a hotel coz i was flying between KL, Bkk and Jkt. My fmly hardly see me around. My 2nd daughter up to age 3 didnt even know tat i m her father! I was betting tat the economy will hold up till at least 1998 after the commonwealth games and once the next 10yrs downturn cycle came, my debts wud all be paid up and i cud retire early and enjoy all my riches! When i came to Christ and started reading the Bible, i realised i was exactly like the foolish rich man in Luke. What a fool i was.

Betw 1994 and July 1997, thgs were going real fine. All 3 branches were enjoying brisk biz and my co.'s turnover jumped into the millions, from a small one-man-show 50k company it grew into a multi-million ringgit co wt more than 100 staffs spread over 3 countries, but the success was built on the wrong foundation, it was built on bribery and all sorts of sinful ways and means of procuring biz. Little did i knw tat disaster was about to strike. One fine day, the Thai currency crashed and the whole Asian economic tigers died! Suddenly, my order books whch was full, became empty due to cancellations and postponements as most companies and investors pulled out of the region. Big government multi-nationals needed to be rescued so they cut most of their sponsorship of events and concerts resulting in our jobs being cancelled! My partner in Bkk fled with more than 2 million baht of my profits, my partner in Jkt had to flee the country when a few of his offices and warehouses were burned down by the mob....tat was when i realised my Indon partner was a crony and proxy of Suharto's son in drugs, extasy pills and money laundering biz! Thank God, even tho i still didnt know Him at tat point, had mercy and let me salvage all my equipment and assets and transferred them back to Msia. Back home in Msia, most of my best friends cum biz associates cum buddies also abandoned me.....collectively owing me almost RM1mil! No amount of pleading or threat of lawsuit cud coax them to help me by paying up their debts. At the same time, the bank was recalling my loans and because i was behind in many payments, they were also threatening me with bankruptcy lawsuits. It was really frustrating, i only had an outstanding balance of about RM500k and i had more than 1mil in other ppl's hands out there....if only they paid up, i wud've been scot free and wud even have enuf balance to weather thru the bad times! But now looking back, i thank God for allowing my circumstances as such coz otherwise i wud not know Him till this day.

With all these pressures, i was getting more and more desperate from day to day. There were no jobs and i had so many staffs to feed. The bank was engaging debt collectors to harass me day and night. Repossessors were calling and visiting me to threaten to repossess my fleet of cars and trucks. Thank God the premise is under my dad's name! I kept calling all my so-called buddies to pay up but all of them switch off their phones when they see my number, some even changed their numbers, some bolted. I was so very bitter, angry and depressed. I was out all day going around to beg for jobs, even small tiny jobs which i wud normally reject but tat was payback time....all those agencies with small budget jobs scorned at me because i used to reject their jobs with pride and arrogance. i was desperately trying to liquidate my assets but no one was interested! Depression quickly set in. I was out all day and all night driving aimlessly around KL. My ex-wife thot i was keeping a mistress coz i withdrew from her and was not around most of the time. I didnt knw how to talk to her and din wan her to panic if she know what kind of trouble i was in. So she oso started going out getting drunk wt frens then come home and fight and quarrel. It became so bad finally she jz packed her bags and left.

Extremely bitter and angry, in those days when almost evyone abandoned me, i started hearing voices that told me to commit suicide, some of these voices suggested tat i shud engage hired killers to kill all those who betrayed me and then kill myself before i get caught by police....some friends from BKK introduced me to professionals tat cost anything betw USD200 to USD5k! From daggers to machine guns! Ha ha ha...one "cable" in the m’sian government circle even offered to help me procure the service of an SB officer who moonlights as a hired assassin! (Tats y i believe Raja Petra’s story on altantuya). Only RM5k to take a life! How cheap and terrible! I was seriously considering those options, even went as far as borrowing money to do it!

But alas, God is gracious to me. Suddenly, i began to hear another voice in my heart tat reminded me of my kids, reminded me what if after killing those ppl, the assassin turned around and started to blackmail me? Then one fine day when I cudnt contain the mental pain and torture anymore, i finally opened up to my 2nd sister and she gave me a Bible. She reminded me tat when i was a small 7yo boy, they gave me a picture Bible and i rejected it saying tat i can be successful on my own. That i was my own God and can determine my own destiny. How wrong i was.....so i took the Bible home and started reading Genesis.

On the 1st nite when i brought the Bible home, i kneeled beside my bed and i said, Jesus, if you are who you are as was told to me and as what the Bible writes, if you are truly the Son of God, all i want is a good night's sleep....sumthg whch i have not had for many months already. Without realising it, i dozed off peacefully and slept in tat kneeling position till the next morning! I had such a beautiful, peaceful sleep! Hallelujah! When i woke up, that day was 1st April 1999. I immediately did what i normally do evy morning, go to deposit at "Bank Negara", but instead of bringing the newspaper with me as usual, i brought the Bible my sister gave me the previous day....and i ended up in the wc for almost 2 hours! i was so captivated by the stories of Abraham, Isaac, Jacob and Joseph that my parents tot i fainted or committed suicide in the wc! ha ha ha....they were searching for me then started to shout to see whr i was! Less than 2 hours after tat, after dressing up etc, i suddenly got a call from a friend who was avoiding my calls for the last few months. You see, i tried to sell him my franchise whch was worth around RM1mil. I was even prepared to go as low as RM600k but i was so annoying tat he stopped answering my calls. He called tat morning and asked if my franchise and the eqmt tat came with it is sold or not. i said no. Then he asked if the price still remains at RM1mil? I said yes (actually i was desperate enuf to go much lower than tat). Then he said he'd like to meet me to discuss financing details the next few days! WOW! For sum1 who has been avoiding me to suddenly call me to make me such a good offer? This is a miracle! Cud this really be Jesus? I cudnt believe it....so that night, i kneeled beside my bed and prayed again. I asked Jesus to give me another sign coz tat day was April Fool's Day....maybe it was a prank by tat friend. Amazingly, i had another beautiful sleep that nite and when i woke up, i did the same routine and spent another 2hours in the wc reading the whole book of exodus. A few hours later, i recvd a call from another friend and he told me that a pastor from Johor Bahru wud like to visit my warehouse the following day to test some of my other speakers and sound system to purchase for his new church in JB. Apparently, this Pastor Awalludin Abu Bakar prayed for the Sultan of Johor's brother who was suffering from throat cancer and he donated a large sum of money for him to start a new church. Double WOW! Well, tat day i learned that there is no such thing as "COINCIDENCE" in this world. Jesus IS the true Son of the Living God! The God of the Bible! After so many months of living in depression, fear, anger, bitterness, pain and desperation, that day, i saw the light at the end of the tunnel! Finally, i found the true God who loves me and really can help me! I have never been so relieved and happy ever in my life!

The following day, Pastor Awalludin, another pastor from his church, his sound engineer and my friend came to meet me. We chatted and i let them test those speakers they were interested to buy. After that, over some drinks, as we chatted, i told them about about my biz in Thailand and indon. I believe, led by the HS, i told them about my fear of heights and how i used to go bungee jumping in Phuket jz to try to get rid of this fear. At that point, suddenly, Ps Awal stopped me and said tat God wants to tell me sumthg. I was shocked. I didnt know God can speak to ppl. I didnt know God wanted to speak to such a wretched soul like me. He told me tat God knows i am like a man hanging by a small branch of a tree over a high cliff. I was screaming and shouting for help but no one hears or bothers. I was afraid of letting go lest i fall into the deep ravine and die.

But Ps Awal told me that God is asking me to let go and fall coz Jesus is waiting for me to fall into His hands at the bottom of the deep dark ravine. It was exactly how i hv been feeling for many months. God knows wat was in my heart! I was speechless. I jz stood there and cried uncontrollably for almost 30mins! When i finally calmed down, i accepted Christ into my heart right there and then. After i finished saying the sinner's prayer, i felt a great sense of freedom and release! I felt so light i tot i cud jz float up and fly! Praise the Lord! Up till today, 9 yrs later, evytime i share this testimony wt any1, tears of joy still comes flooding back to me. I was like a little child who lost his parents in a huge shopping mall and has found them again! Hallelujah!

To cut the whole story short, many miracles happened after tat. God helped me dispose of most of my assets to pay watever remaining debts i still had. I sold off all my trucks and the 2 luxury cars and humbled myself to drive an old 2nd hand car. HS led me to trim my company's expenses and took out all those redundant, dormant and wastage items and personnel. God brought another buyer to take over my franchise as well as the entire bank loan thus releasing me from the responsibility and burden. God led me to relinguish a lot of the properties and assets tat i acquired while i was still an unbeliever and made me start back from square one. It was quite painful and heartsick to let go of the fruits of many yrs of hard work but i jz surrendered to God in faith tat He has better thgs and times in store for me further down the road. And true enuf, after 9yrs of walking wt Jesus, i m enjoying Prov 10:22...."the blessings of the LORD makes one rich, and He adds no sorrow to it"! God has restored to me 10x of wat i used to hv and He is still increasing! Amen! God is good, ALL the time!

God bless us all!

TESTIMONY OF A CHANGED BROTHER IN CHINA, CHARGED UP BY THE HOLY SPIRIT

Hi Josh,

I really experienced a lot during the days in Shanghai and Suzhou. It's Father's work that change my heart and thought. To be honest, I am a lot worried about speaking tongue and the power of holy especially when I first meet Chris and his Malaysian friends. I know they came from Pentecostal church, and really believed about the power of HS. I even made a decision in my heart that no matter what they say, I will never speak tongues before them.

However, what happened in Suzhou is very dramatic. We went to a prayer centre which is owned by a local Chinese leader, who has a lot of amazing testimonies. We pray together, and a brother from the Malaysia team stand up and use oil to anoint the Chinese leader Joshua. And I just put my hand on Joshua's shoulder. At that very moment, I feel a strong power came to my heart which I never experienced before. I feel very uncomfortable, and my heart feel like bursting. I cannot stop crying, and my mouth cannot stop saying something, although I cannot understand it. After that, two Malaysia sister came to me and asked me to lay down. And they began to prey for me. Then a sister named Sarah said to me,"Ï see two things in your heart that is controlling you, one is your relationship with your parents, the other is your strong guilty feelings". I will so astonished, since I never shared this with Sarah. I only shared my problem with Chris. I even asked Chris whether he has told something to Sarah and Chris replied that he would never share anything said in confidence. Anyway, Sarah asked me confess these two things before Father and ask him to release me. I feel so comfortable after that prayer.

And it is even more amazing during the evening. Sisters and brothers from the local church came and Chris shared a short messages to them. After that, the Malaysia team and the Chinese leader Joshua pray for everyone in the church. I also join to pray for those brothers and sisters. I see a lot of people fall down because the HS came upon them. Some sisters cried heavily, and some others who has been attacked by evil spirit keep vomiting for hours. When I pray for them, my left arm began to shake, which I can stop if I want. I was so shocked during the whole night, which is not because I see some miracles, but because I myself is part of it.

During those days with Chris in Suzhou, Shanghai and Beijing, I am keeping thinking about what he said and seeing what he did. I found that his words are really based on the our special book, and his personality is very good---- open, honest, full of love, free in heart and so plain for someone spiritual. He loves us and jokes with all of us and yet when he prays for the brothers in Beijing, he speaks with the strong belief of the book. I asked him why he was laughing when he was praying for people and he replied why not? He replied that he is just ordinary person who believes in an extra-ordinary God.

So I think all these is really from our Father, and he want to bless me and change me and experience his mighty power. This is not something that Chris asked me to do or encourage me to do, but father told me to do. And we even discuss about Pentecostal church and Calvin church or other Conservative church. I think Chris really has a proper and balanced opinion about this issue.

I think HS's most important work in my life is draw me closer to father. I feel refreshed and renewed when I pray and read our book during these days.

Best regards, man, hope you can be filled with HS every day.

BE A GOOD STEWARD OF GOD'S ROYAL HOUSEHOLD, BLESS OTHERS REGARDLESS OF RACE, COLOR & RELIGION

Hi Sister,

What a great testimony! God was definitely moving that nite wasnt He?

Well, the amount is not important, what is most important is whether we choose to obey God or not. I think that is what really matters to God. We are true and faithful in small things and God will give us more talents to invest in us so tat it'll grow and enrich His kingdom and glorify His name. Keep up the good work sister. Continue to learn to listen and folo the HS and you'll be able to discern whether it is God's will or d devil's manipulation. However, there was something which Ps Elisa shared which i was not agreeable to.....on giving to non-believers. I'll speak to her one of these days when God give me the opportunity.

You see, many yrs ago, early in my walk with Christ, i had a really wonderful testimony which the HS rekindled in my mind during Ps Elisa's class.

One day, i was on my way to meet a new client, Panasonic Sales and Marketing in PJ. Jz as i was arriving at their office, a malay man jumped out onto the road right in front of my car! i emergency braked and tot it was a robbery. However, he came to my passenger side window and i can see he was really desperate and crying. So i wound down the window and asked him what is the matter. He told me that he, his wife and infant child came from Alor Star that very morning to PJ to see a relative but left their money bags in the express bus. They tried to look for the bus but the bag and all their money was gone. He said he is a lorry driver and doesnt have any money left. They begged for some money at Puduraya and took a bus to PJ only to find their relative's house empty and the neighbours said the relative is outstation for a few days. So now they are left without money, clothes and a hungry little baby! I saw the wife breastfeeding the baby by the roadside. He asked me to give him a lift to Puduraya so that they can sit by the bridge and beg for some money to go home to Alor Star.

I asked him how long has he been there by the roadside and why no one else offered to help. He said he stopped many cars and none bothered. In my mind, i wanted to leave because i was going to be late for the meeting and since this is a first time client, they may not give me the job since i am late even for the 1st meeting! But the Holy Spirit kept prompting me to drive this malay family to Puduraya. I contended with God, saying why should i? This person is not a Christian but a Muslim! But in the end, as the burden was just too heavy, i relented and asked him to bring his wife into my MPV.

As I was nearing Puduraya, even though this man didnt ask me for it, the Holy Spirit again prompted me to give him RM100 so he can buy milk for his baby and buy the bus tickets to Alor Star and taxi fare from Alor Star to his home in a small village. Again i contended with the Holy Spirit, I said, he is not a Christian, why should i give him money? I tot we are only supposed to bless our fellow brothers and sisters in Christ! But the reply i got from Jesus is that regardless of religion, God created all of us and we are all brothers and sisters only that these are the lost ones....at that time i only had slightly more than RM120 in my wallet, it was 1999 during the midst of the economic downturn and i was quite tight but what to do? Such a strong prompting from God, give lah...and i told them that my Jesus asked me to give them the money even though they didnt ask for it. I testified to them that only my Jesus can bless people like this, so i said if one day, they find their religion futile, remember to give a chance to Jesus lah...aiya, pay money already, evangelise lah...in tat kinda situation i am sure they wont report me to police lah...he he he...

After dropping them off, as i drove back to PJ, i called my client and told them tat i had an emergency and was sorry i was late. They asked me to hurry up to meet them as they were going out for other appointments so i quickly went to their office. Upon arrival, i was initially disappointed to find out that all they wanted was to rent some lights and a smoke machine for their upcoming exhibition! All this would only make me a few hundred ringgit! Suddenly, another of their colleagues walked into the meeting and asked to see my company's profile. So i quickly showed them what we can do and all our previous exhibitions, dinners and concerts that we used to organise for other clients. He was so impressed that he immediately called his big boss to join the meeting and ..........

To cut the long story short, at the end of the whole job, the whole contract came up to almost RM100K!!!! Praise the Lord! 1000 fold blessing! So my sister in Christ, always obey the prompting of the Holy Spirit and God will surely bless you tremendously!

Take care. See you this Saturday at the Miracle Healing Rally!

Thanks and God bless you, Jesus loves you!

WHAT TO DO WITH OUR OLD LIFE AFTER WE ACCEPT YESHUA AS OUR LORD & SAVIOUR?

Shalom Sis,

Thanks for the very frank and open sharing. Bros and sis fr DLS, i believe this shud be the policy of this group. A place whr v can share openly without any1 judging us or worry if any1 wud gossip or talk behind our back. It shud also be a platform whr v can help each other be accountable to God.

Allow me to share on those issues u r being challenged in.

Water baptism, well, believe it or not, i only did mine in July this yr. I hv wanted to do it many many times over the last 9 yrs but each & evytime there was a hindrance. Even in July, on the very day i was supposed to do my water baptism, suddenly evythg tat cud go wrong went wrong! But i rebuked the devil and even with the threat of a huge thunderstorm, i went ahead. Fetch the pastor and we ended up having a beautiful sunset water baptism at the Ulu Langat Reservoir! After tat, i experienced a really big breakthru in my walk and feel a huge surge in my spiritual strength and faith. So i do agree tat getting ur water baptism done as soon as possible is extremely beneficial.

As for the church u r attending, well, continue to pray to God to lead you whether to stay or whether your "Promised Land" is sumwhr else.

As for clubbing and partying, well, i think the best counselor wud be the HS. All kinds of ppl will hv all kinds of ideas and "doctrines" on this issue....but let me share my experience with u. Mayb God can use my testimony to speak to you and let you decide your next choice of action.

U c, i m in the event management / entertainment biz for the last 20yrs of my life. This biz involves hvng to entertain clients to wine, women and song. Even prior to accepting Christ, i wz already vy uncomfortable with this lifestyle, cmg hm drunk at least 3-4 days evy week. To compound it, this biz in M'sia is greatly corrupted. To secure big govn & private concert jobs, a lot of monetary bribery and "favours" need to be offered. So can you imagine after accepting Christ, what kind of guilt i had to go thru? Some adviced tat i shud give up the biz and change line. But hw? i hv a fmly to feed and loads of bills to pay. Some ppl suggested tat mayb God put me there to be the "Light" in tat dark / sleazy and corrupted world of showbiz. But its not easy to be a lone ranger surrounded by an army of cannibals! After a while, i began to feel like i hv split personality, like a hypocrite....holy on sundays and playing the devil's advocate on the other days....and after a longer while, i became numb to those feelings of guilt and started to rationalise tat well, a little mischief wont do much harm. Afterall, it is my job and God was blessing me. Before i knw it, i already backslided and started drifting away from the Lord. Well, many months later, the HS gave me a big slap and woke me up with the story of Joseph when he was at Portipar's hse. When he was tempted, what did he do? He fled! He didnt stay and exercise any "Lone Ranger" anointing. He ran for his life. So tat wz wat the Lord taught me.

So i started to pray tat the Lord help me find new clients whom do not require entertaining and bribery. I also prayed tat our good Lord lead me to another biz which wil not hav any elements of sin but can instead be a ministry to share the Gospel of Jesus wt more ppl and glorify God.

Well, over the last few years God has been graceful and merciful. God have almost completely overhauled my range of clientele. Many clients from those unbelieving years now know tat i m a born again Christian and do not indulge in those former vices anymore. Praise the Lord, many of them still come back for my services as i hv a good and proven track record. God has also brought me many new clients who do not demand for kickbacks and extra-ordinary favors. God also brought many Churches and Christian organizations like NECF to use my services. And thank God, He changed my circumstances to such tat i spend most of my time taking k of my 3 kids, work fr hm and now God brings clients to me instead of me running all over town looking and begging for contracts! Praise God! I hv stopped clubbing, pub hopping etc for many years now and dont miss it at all! Anytime i feel lonely, esp when my kids are in sch or whn they go back to my ex-wife's hse, i wud apply wat was learned in DLS, chat wt Jesus in tongues & immerse myself in the Word of God.

Also, since 2 yrs ago, He has begun to lead me to start a Children's Ministry in the form of a school in China.

So sister, jz let the conviction of the HS to lead and guide you. Vy soon, i believe the Lord will open many other healthy avenues of entertainment for you and your frens to enjoy and mayb even open up opportunities for you to lead them to Christ. The most important thing is never to let go of Jesus. Stay faithful and apply wat v learned in DLS on hw to differentiate betw the voice of the HS and the whispers of the devil.

So all bros & sis fr DLS, we really need to pray for each other daily. I think most of us are going thru some form of trials even as I write this sharing rite? Pls include me in your prayers too ya…I m on the verge of a major breakthrough for the Kids ministry in China so need God to give me strength, patience and perseverance to complete this marathon race.

God bless us all!

POSITION YOURSELF TO RECEIVE YAHWEH'S ABUNDANT BLESSINGS

TESTIMONY OF THE GOODNESS OF OUR LORD JESUS

POSITION YOURSELF TO RECEIVE GOD’S ABUNDANT BLESSINGS!

Shalom!

Fellow disciples of the HOuse Of JOy!

Thank GOD for Rev Jeffrey & Cindy. Last nite was another power packed session wt HS eh? How many of you saw the gold dust tat Katy and i saw and felt? HEAVYYYYYYYYYY and OVERFLOWINGGGGGGGGG! Wah lau! I want to check my teeth...see whether those fillings turned to gold or not...he he he...happened to me once 10yrs ago when I was in a certain church in PJ.

So, as i shared wt some of u and wt Ps Margareth & Ps Jerry last nite, to give all glory to JESUS, HS and our FATHER in Heaven, i share wt u all and on my blog again lah.

As i know i wud be away in China for 3wks over cny and wud miss Dr. Sim's class, i knew Dr Sim wud be challenging us on sowing and finances. So i asked the LORD wat shud i do? The LORD said take a step of faith and try HIM and experience HIS faithfulness again. So, I prepared 2 current dated cheques a few days b4 i left for China...RM2k each for Dr.Sim and for Ps Vernon. I left it wt a leave application letter and asked Betty to help give to Regina.

2 days b4 i left for China (i was struggling whether to go or not then...sum of u wud knw), on the 1st day of cny, suddenly a client called and asked if i was in KL or China. I said i m in KL and mayb goin to China in 2 days' time. Immediately he said he'll send me an email on a scuba diving 'dry bag' he wants me to help him source in China. After looking at his mail, i asked him why don't he buy direct since he already found the factory from the internet and can get it cheaper? He said he was worried about getting cheated so wud rather give me the biz and let me earn. I knw tat GOD touched his heart to call me. So i got evythg settled, delivered and they have their bags to go to Bali for holidays lah. 2 days ago i checked and they transferred the balance payment to me.

After making out the P&L....guess what?......the total net profit from this deal was RM4k!.......ha ha ha!!! PTL! GOD is definitely no debtor of man eh? HE is faithful and just to reward us for our faith....even tho it is the exact same amount with no extras, this reassurance from JESUS of GOD's faithfulness is great enuf a blessing to make me smile and laugh evy time i think about this! Amen!?

Now this is where I want to share with all of u. You see, our loving FATHER in heaven wants to bless all HIS children on earth. So why are some blessed and some are still waiting and praying and not seeing breakthroughs yet?

Now, this is what I noticed among many Christians. Barring any secret unrighteousness or whatever other factors that is hindering GOD’s blessings from flowing into you, many Christians are stuck in a position where blessings cannot flow in unless GOD literally makes money “fall down from the sky”. I am not encouraging you all to quickly take up selling insurance and do MLM biz tho that can also be a channel of blessing….but I am sure you know how many people feel about insurance agents and direct selling agents. And I have heard many encouraging testimonies of how GOD really made money appear out of nowhere. But many brothers and sisters in Christ are boxed up in an “employee” mindset while GOD wants us to have the “employer” / “entrepreneur” paradigm!

What I would like to encourage all of you to do is to open up extra channels for GOD’s rivers of blessings to flow to you. Do you have a special skill or service that you can provide for others? Skills like DIY home improvement / renovation services, pre & post natal massage services, cooking / catering, car tuning, product sourcing, book keeping / accountancy, tuition for school / uni kids, minding kids with Godly principles, facial/makeup/hair-dressing expertise, car pool school bus service etc….these are highly sought after services IF only you make yourselves available! How? Advertise! Open a free blogsite for yourself, send out emails introducing your services, print simple & cheap biz cards to pass to friends and relatives, print cheap single color flyers and pass it around your neighbourhood, around your favourite food courts, put it on windshields of cars parked along the road and other places tat you happen to be in…..lets face it, out of 100 cards / flyers, if you hit 10 customers you’ll have a profit already….and now you have an Almighty GOD to help you….HE will cause people to advertise for you by word of mouth and before you know it, you’ll be reaping in big bucks!

Give it a try! Don’t limit GOD in what / how / where / when HE can bless you. Jz open up channels where provisions can flow in. A word of caution tho…

(1) When GOD send the customers, do the best you can as tho u are doing it unto the LORD…(Robert Bosch once said “I’d rather lose money than lose my reputation and goodwill”) and (2) HONOR GOD WITH THE FIRSTFRUITS OF HIS BLESSINGS – TITHE!

Hope this testimony encouraged you all to also take tat step of faith in your daily walk with our FATHER, JESUS and HOLY SPIRIT ya?

GOD bless us all! Amen!

Your servant,